Finding Love part 3
authors: aleena_mokoia hikabu
Pairings: Daichii, Hikabu, Okajima, Takayama, Keitaro (inooryu?)
Fandom:Hey Say Jump
A/N: again apologize for the confusing POV changes. *bows* orginally was an RP. Also forgive the many mistakes!
I smile, looking at Yama-chan for a moment. I understood he was worried and that he liked Yuyan, however I also felt a little guilty. I was so close to both 7 and Best, which meant I knew everything that was going on. I knew Yuya had a crush on Yama-chan, but was too dense to realize Yama-chan had the same feelings.
"You know, I'm willing to bet Yuya is having a similar issue. He's pretty dense, but I know him well enough to know he wouldn't kiss you, even on the forehead, if he didn't have feelings for you." I grin and stare at Yama-chan who was being comforted by Chii and Yuto.
I stare at my best friend in concern for a moment, before looking up and seeing Dai-chan's grinning face. Knowing the older boy must know something, I found a grin slowly plastering on my face.
"Ne why not talk to Yuya? I mean Dai-chan's right, he is kinda dense...probably even more so when it comes to how he feels and how others feel about him, he's like Jin-sempai like that. I mean Kamenashi-sempai has had a crush on him for so long and he STILL doesn't seem to get it!" I find myself grinning at Yama-chan before staring back at Keito who's gentle features always calmed everyone down.
I smile at the sight of the rest of 7 plus Daiki bonding. It was nice that Yama-chan and Yuyan might get together soon. I found my thoughts wandering back to Inoo-chan and found myself blushing. I was confused by my own actions moments ago. Why had I left like that? I felt frustrated at the thought. I look over to see Dai-chan staring at me. While everyone focused on Yama-chan's issue, Daiki somehow seemed to sense another problem. I sigh and smile mouthing that it was nothing. He frowned at me but accepted it as Chii snuggled into him content.
I think for a few moments, Hikaru's words sinking in. I smile with a goofy grin on my face and without much thought I yell a quick "Domo!" before racing to see if I could locate the young camwhore and see if I could sort all of this out. I felt myself thanking Hikaru, Yabu, and Inoo for being there for me as I run to the dressing room which I was sure held the boys from 7 and probably the one missing member of Best.
I watch as Yuya leaves and I find myself staring at Inoo. My heart went out to him. I myself had been struggling with my own feelings for so long. I knew how hard it was to be unsure of how the other person felt.
"Well perhaps Ryutaro is having some issues himself when it comes to you? Why not try to gage his reactions around you and see what you find out?" I found myself thinking that I should follow my own advice. I knew I had feelings for Hikaru, but I wasn't sure how he felt. I looked at the two boys I easily could list as my best friends and smiled.
I smile, feeling a lot better than I had before. I'm feeling a lot more confident than before, enough to give me the courage to talk things out with Yuyan. Even if he rejects me, I want to make sure that we can still be friends. It may be hard at first, but as long as we can form a friendship again if he doesn't feel the same, I'll be able to keep on smiling.
"I didn't even think about that. Yuyan is a lot like Jin-sempai and even I know that Kamenashi-sempai likes him, I kind of forgot all about that. I'll going to go for it. Wish me luck" I smile widely and wave to the group as I begin to leave and bump right into Yuyan.
"You know, we have to stop finding each other like this, one of us is going to be knocked silly one of these days" I laugh a little and rub the back of my head. "Yuyan...can we talk? Alone..." I reach out my hand and take Yuyan's before he could answer and pull him down the hall and into an empty room, closing the door behind me.
I walk over to one of the couches in the room and take a seat. "Yuyan, I want to get something straight that I didn't really make clear before. Remember how I mentioned being jealous of Jin-sempai? Well...that's because I didn't like him being so close to you. I...I wanted to be in Jin-sempai's position..." I blush and continue, "I..I like you but I can never read how you feel about me. I've been afraid that maybe the one you like is Jin-sempai."
I glance over at Ryutaro after I notice the concern in Dai-chan's eyes and realize what was wrong. I wiggle off of Dai-chan's lap and walk over to Ryutaro and smile. "I'm sorry Ryutaro; we were so focused on helping Yama-chan, when we should have noticed that you needed help too. Is it Inno-chan?" I smile when I notice the slightly younger boy blush. "Want to tell Dai-chan and me what happened? We would be happy to help, right Dai-chan?" I glance over at Dai-chan who nodded back at me.
I walk over to Yuto and wrap my arms around him, already knowing exactly what was going on. Along with Yuto, they had discussed it together one night, after watching Ryutaro's reactions whenever he was around Inoo-chan, that they thought their friend had feelings for the older pretty boy.
"Did maybe Inoo-chan upset you in some way? Maybe by something he said?" I notice Ryutaro's eyes widen slightly and smile gently. "So that's it. I'm not sure if this will make you feel better, but Yabu once told me that Inoo-chan tends to lie when he wants to comfort someone, or if he's feeling embarrassed about something. He also added that Inoo can be a little shy sometimes." I smile softly, keeping my arms comfortably around Yuto.
"I never really put that into consideration. I was only thinking of myself, huh? Domo, Yabu, I think I'll do just that. I don't want Ryutaro to end up thinking that I don't trust him" I smile and notice the glances Yabu was making towards Hikaru. "I'm going to go find Ryutaro and see if he wants to go for some ice cream, why don't you take Hika-chan somewhere to eat" I hint and smile before leaving the two alone in the room to find Ryutaro.
I smile in triumph that we were able to help our friends with their love problems, but it only reminded me that I was far from figuring out my own. I look down and realize that I still wasn't dressed, and glance over at Yabu, seeing that it was the same for him and blush lightly. "We should probably get dressed before we catch cold. I hope Yuya realizes at some point that he left the room shirtless" I couldn't help but smile when I thought of how Yama-chan would react to a shirtless Yuya when he wasn't expecting it.
I bend down to pick up my shirt and glance over at Yabu, "Ne, Yabu, is there someone that you like?" I don't know why I asked, or even if Yabu would answer, but after helping both Yuyan and Inoo-chan, he was a little curious to see if Yabu had anyone he liked.
I nod and look at Ryutaro for a moment, nodding my head. "Yea Inoo is very shy, and he likes to cover that up. I wouldn't worry." I smiled. I enjoyed knowing all the secrets, however my desire to be a good friend conflicted with my desire to tell. I almost felt myself shy at the situation; from the sounds of it Inoo-chan had once again chosen to lie his way out of being embarrassed.
I fell into Keito's warm embrace; once again I noted the look in Daiki's eyes that told me he knew more. "Yea don't worry ne." I grin happily at the developments going on around me. I grin and stare at Keito before pulling him into a gentle kiss. Happy that I was able to be with the one I loved, and even more happy that more and more of my friends were finding love.
I think for a second before deciding to let it go. I knew Inoo was a shy person on the inside, but I also felt a bit sad that I somehow made him feel the need to be shy. I suddenly hear my tummy growl and sigh, wondering how I could still be so hungry when I just ate, forgetting that I had left the cafeteria before finishing all my food before.
I find myself staring wide eyed at Yama-chan, the cold air letting me finally realize that I had forgotten my shirt. He seemed to notice too as he looked away, his face was beat red. I find that my voice wasn't going to come to me and instead choose a different path. I step up so I was looming over Yama-chan and in a swift moment I brought the boys mouth to my own. I couldn't have been more surprised at my actions but felt the need to continue.
After a few passionate kisses I release him and turn my back to Yama-chan, my face beat red. "Ilikeyoutoo" I said too fast for anyone to reasonably understand, but silently hoping Yama-chan somehow got the message.
I quickly get dressed before looking at Hikaru. I wanted desperately to avoid the question asked, so I did. "You know, we should get some food. We haven’t eaten anything and I'm starved. I think the cafeteria is still open. Come on." I drag the barley dressed Hikaru away, hoping that the question that made my heart feel like it was going to jump right out of my chest wouldn't be asked again.
I poke my head into the room where Chii, Daiki, Keito, Yuto and Ryutaro were all gathered in and walk inside. "Hope I'm not interrupting anything. Ryutaro...I think I might of said something to upset you before and you never got to finish your food. To make up for it, I was wondering if I could buy you some ice-cream?" I smile, hoping he would agree.
My heart began to race slightly in hope that Ryutaro would agree. I wanted to set things straight and tell the boy the truth, even if it made me look like some pervert. I wanted to be truthful to him, it's the first time I've felt that I wanted to be fully honest with someone.
I gently push Ryutaro towards Inoo and place their hands together. "Go on, enjoy some ice cream and have some fun. No more sad faces!" I pout and then giggle, running back over to Dai-chan and plopping back on his lap. I lean up and kiss him, pulling away only when I noticed the looks we were getting from Ryutaro and Inoo. "Go. Talk. Eat Ice Cream." I mouth.
I watch while Inoo took the initiative to pull Ryutaro out of the room, most likely to save him from seeing two couples making out, and I grin, happy to have a little more privacy, ignoring the fact that Keito and Yuto were still in the room. I lean up and kiss Dai-chan, this time a little longer.
I walk with Ryutaro, hand and hand, a blush on my face, and go back to the cafeteria where the ice cream shop was and order Ryutaro's favorite and my own and walk over to one of the tables, one secluded from the others and sit down across from the younger boy. I take a deep breath and look over.
"You will probably think I'm some pervert after this but...you see...I didn't leave the dressing room because I was excited about the shoot. I kind of was ummm..." I blush even deeper "checkingyouout" I say quickly, unsure if he would understand what I just said, I turn an even deeper red.
I smile into the kiss and pull Yuto even closer, forgetting that we had company at the moment. When we finally pull away, I glance over at the other pair and blush. "Let’s go to another room." I take Yuto's hand and walk past the pair making out and go to another empty room, walk over to one of the couches and pull Yuto down so that he was sitting on my lap and wrap my arms around him protectively.
I was speechless, not something that happened too often. My face was beat red and I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach. I couldn't believe that my crush felt the same as I did, not only that, but he was a great kisser. I blush at my thoughts but no longer was care, all I knew that my wish came true. I stand up and wrap my arms around the taller boy, resting my head against his back. "Dummy, you should have told me sooner." I tease and smile against his back. I definitely have to thank the others later for this or I might of never of told Yuyan how I felt.
"Ne, Yuyan, how did you learn how to kiss like that? I should of confessed sooner; maybe I should tell Kamanashi-sempai to do the same with Jin-sempai." I laugh and smile.
"Wo..woah, Ko, I'm still not fully dressed and you didn't answer my question." I pout but follow while Yabu pulled me down the hall and into the cafeteria. Once Yabu let my hand go free, I quickly put my shirt on that was still in my other hand. I begin to wonder why he didn't want to answer. We're best friends, so why can't he tell me? I walk over and order some udon noodles and soda and walk over to a table with Yabu after he ordered some food.
"Ne, Ko, could I ask you something? Hypothetically speaking, I have a friend and well he likes his best friend, but more than just as a friend. You see, he doesn't know how to tell his friend this since he's afraid he'd ruin their friendship. What would you say he should do?" I glance over, hoping he would realize that I was talking about myself.
I drop my spoon right back into the bowl of ice-cream. I blink, thinking maybe I heard Inoo wrong. He was checking me out? I felt a blush form on my cheeks. I then suddenly had a silly idea in my head.
"Ne, checking me out? Isn't that a bit Pedoish?" I tease a smile forming on my face that I wasn't use to having.
"Well I suppose its okay....so long as it's just me." I turn and glance at the boy. I wasn't ready for any kind of a confession, and even if a confession was made I would make Inoo wait. I wanted to sort things out, that didn't mean I wasn't going to tease him though. The smile on my face dropped for a minute and I wondered if teasing wasn't such a good idea, after all Inoo was already pretty shy.
"I mean I don't know how I feel, so give me time okay?" The words escaped before I could focus on what I was doing. I turn bright red and choose to instead stuff my face full of ice cream.
I grin into the kiss. I noticed that Chii and I were left alone in the room at the moment and couldn't help but grin. We continued to kiss until some part of my brain told me it was too much, too soon. Reluctantly I pulled away smiling.
"Ne, we should take things a bit slower, after all I want to be with you forever." I blush lightly at my own words, and stare down at Chii in my lap who pouted a bit.
I feel myself blushing and unable to comprehend what was happening. Yama-chan was excepting my feelings. He felt the same. A small smile appeared on my face before I turned around and pushed Yama-chan down onto the small couch. From there I made our lips meet in more heated kisses.
I smiled, feeling the younger boy move. Biting his lower lip I was allowed entrance. I felt as if I was on cloud nine. Finally I pulled away and put my forehead on the younger boys. "Well, that was nice...Ryosuke" I test out what saying his actual first name is like. I look into his eyes hoping that it was okay. I couldn’t help but grin on top of the one I loved. Saying his first name felt amazing to me, and I hoped I could keep saying it for the rest of my life.
I continue to eat for a moment, ignoring Hikaru's words. I felt my heart breaking at the thought of Hikaru liking someone else. However everyone else in the group was pairing off. I wondered momentarily if Hikaru was talking about me before dismissing that possibility from my brain.
"Well I would tell that friend of yours to gage a response. Instead of an outright confession, see what little things do. Like for example, see if the person gets jealous, or pulls away when you touch them. That way you can see how the other person feels." I blush at my words and find myself hoping Hikaru was talking about an actual friend, so that I still could be near him.
I knew the chances of Hikaru and I being together weren't all that slim, however I also knew that Hikaru was popular.
I don't notice that my ice cream is slowing melting away; dripping down my arm, my attention was fully on the smaller boy who at the moment was stuffing his mouth with ice cream. I couldn't believe my ears. Ryutaro, who seemed more mature than even the older members, was teasing me. Though the teasing of the boy isn't what is sticking in my head though...it’s the fact that the boy wanted to sort out his own feelings. Knowing that, it gives me a small glimmer of hope that I can win the younger boys heart, no matter how little chance it was.
"You don't have to rush things. I'm just happy that you don't hate me...it's been worrying me this whole time that's why I told you what really went on" I blush and look down at my arm, which was sticky with ice cream all going down it. I ignore it and decide to change the subject, "So, what do you think Yabu and Hikaru will come up with for the new winter concert?"
I pout and fold my arms over my chest, I really didn't want to stop but I didn't want to chase Dai-chan away either. I quickly smile and poke Dai-chan's nose, "I guess I can wait since you promised to be with me forever." I giggle and climb off his lap and watch while it was his turn to pout.
"Let’s look for Yabumama and Hikapapa, maybe they made some progress, if not I vote that we step in. They help us all the time; it’s our turn to help them." I reach out my hand to Dai-chan and wait for him to take it.
I feel my face heat up as I heard my first name leaving Yuyan's lips, still slightly in a daze from the heated kisses that only just ended moments before. I felt as if I was floating on clouds and that time had stopped for me and I didn't care if it ever started again, just as long as I could remain in that moment with Yuyan.
I lock my eyes with Yuyan, "Very nice...Yuya." I try testing out saying the older boy’s first name, without adding anything to it and blush. "It's okay if you call me Ryosuke...but only you." I smile and close the distance between us and kiss the tip of Yuya's nose and pull away.
I begin to wonder if Yabu was really that dense, but I guess I've never really outright done anything to show him that I have feelings for him. We're best friends after all, it’s not exactly an easy thing to do, especially since we've been close since we were just kids.
"Well that would help if my friend didn't already try that. Their best friends so touching each other isn't really a big deal and he tried to be extra close to someone before, but got no reaction. Normal methods don't work."
I blush and quickly stuff some food into my mouth and swallow. "Forget what I said Ko, maybe its time my friend gave up, it's not worth him losing his best friend and should just leave things as they are..." I don't notice that I was showing a tinge of sadness in my face until Yabu looked over at me with concern and quickly grin, my teeth showing slightly, trying to change the subject, "I just thought of the concert and imagined everyone in their outfits, but when I picture myself in drag I can't help but laugh. I’ll definitely make an interesting girl." I laugh a little.
I stop stuffing my face long enough to stare at the older boy for a moment. I was still pretty stuck on our conversation, but I welcomed the change.
"Well they probably will have us dressed up at some point as something strange knowing them. I'm almost afraid to find out what they'll make us actually...." I begin to trail off and shiver at the ideas of what the boys could possibly make everyone dress up as.
I smile and take Chii's hand, agreeing to help the parenting pair, in more ways then one. I couldn't help but grin as I was dragged by my adorable boyfriend. This day had already been filled with so much, I was sure more was to come.
I smile as I feel the sensation of my boyfriend underneath me. I sigh and notice that I had no shirt on. Suddenly self conscious I put out my hand after getting up. "Come on, I think I need to get fully clothed before something bad happens" I can't help but grin at Yama-chan's pout.
I stare at Hikaru for a moment. I finally decide to laugh along with him, however I can't ignore the sad look in his eyes.
"Well I don't know what this friend of yours should do, but I have a friend with a similar problem, and he doesn't seem to be able to get the message across either."
I feel my face lighting up as I say the words. I quickly eat what was left and look at Hikaru already done. "We should head back to the gang and tell them what going on. Chances are they're dispersed. You grab the two over there eating ice cream, I'll look for Okajima, you see if you can find Takayama, and we'll see who bumps into Daichii"
I got up and put my trash away, attempting to remain calm. What if Hikaru figured out what he just told him?!
"You don't have to look too far, oh and if your looking for okajima, their in the dressing room down the hall and takayama are in the one just two doors down from them. I couldn't help but catch what you said, Yabu-kun...if Hikaru-kun told you something similar with a story on his friend, don't you find that a little funny?" I smile and hug Dai-chan's arm.
I watch as Yabu blushed and pout a little, 'Ne, Yabu-kun, doesn't it seem like your friend needs to be more forward if he wants to get his point across? Maybe the one he likes won't be able to get it unless he 'shows' him."
I can't help but hear the conversation going on a few tables away from us and I see Ryutaro's attention was on the same thing.
"I wonder when daichii came in here. Doesn't it seem like something is going on over there?" I begin to worry, seeing how both Yabu and Hikaru looked. That couldn't be good. Being their best friend, I didn't like seeing them look so conflicted. I get up and walk over with Ryutaro.
"Ne, Yabu, you okay? You too, Hika-chan." I glance from one to the other.
"Aww, do you really have to?" I pout and think about it. "Well...I guess I would rather it was just me that got to see you without a shirt on." I blush and take his hand and get to my feet. I wanted to stay there longer with Yuyan, but I knew that eventually the others would come looking for us.
I slowly unwrap my arms from around Yuto, letting him climb off my lap and stand up. "We should probably go find the others." I take his hand and leave the room, a small smile on my face. I was happy enough just to be able to walk hand and hand with him. Once we reach the cafeteria, I notice everyone crowded around. "What's going on..."
"Nani?! " I end up dropping the tray I had in my hands onto the floor. Could he possibly...no, it can't be...I mean it wouldn't be that weird if he really was talking about a friend, but to mention it now after I did made me think otherwise.
"Ummm...heh...oops." I bop the top of my head, stick my tongue out, trying to joke around and kneel down and begin to pick up my trash. If at all possible, I wanted to avoid all eye contact at the moment, or I knew I would end up turning red from embarrassment.
I smile to myself as I push Yabu forward. Ryutaro looked at me and I winked. He immediately understood, taking Inoo by the hand and dragging him over to where Chii and I stood.
I stumble a bit towards Hikaru, knowing all eyes were on me, and that it was now that I said something or be attacked by a small Penguin, a squirrel, a hamster, and probably some books.
"Hikaru...I-I" I find myself failing at words as my breath become ragged as I attempt to find my bearings.
I walk over with Keito to find Yabu standing above Hikaru. I wonder what’s going on but one look at the others told me all would be answered soon. So I settled to just watch holding hands with my boyfriend.
After finally getting my shirt on, we heard some commotion from the cafeteria. I walk hand and hand with Yama-chan to find an interesting site before me. A very red Yabu, an equally flustered Hikaru, and the rest of JUMP who all looked very amused. Somehow I knew whatever was going to happen next, it was going to be some exciting turn of events.
I finally can't hold back anymore. "I've liked my best friend for years, but I have no clue how he feels about me though." I said putting my head down shaking slightly.
I was beat red and I was sure that I was starting to cry. I felt both embarrassed and scared of how Hika would react to what I just said, almost wanting to take it back.
My eyes widen slightly and I glance up at Yabu. Did I hear right? Did my best friend, whom I've had a crush on for years, actually say that he felt the same?
"Yatta!!" I jump up, a big grin on my face and hug Yabu. "I've liked my best friend for years too, but I didn't think he felt the same either...guess we both were a little dense huh?" I smile into Yabu's chest and pull away to see that he was crying and lift my hand and wipe away the tears and give him my best toothy grin.
"I love you, Ko." I blush through the grin, a little embarrassed saying it in front of everyone but it was now or never.
I clap and cheer, happy that Yabumama and Hikapapa finally confessed to each other. I squeezed Dai-chan's hand and whistle. "Kiss him, Yabumama!" I giggle when I saw Yabu slowly cheer up. It seemed like everyone, but Inoo and Ryutaro were successfully together but I know sooner or later they too would be a couple, it was only a matter of time.
I glance down at Ryutaro and smile our hands still intertwined. I didn't want to rush things, I just wanted to slowly get closer and be able to hold hands with him was enough for me for now. Seeing Yabu and Hikaru finally confessing was a relief, I was beginning to worry that they would continue tiptoeing around each other all their lives.
I hug Yuto and smile, happy for our Hikapapa and Yabumama. It seemed like many beginnings had gone on, all in one day and it made me happy to see all my friends with the one they loved.
I smile at the sight, "About time you two." I smile and keep close to Yuya, understanding very well what Yabu and Hika must of went through, though they had waited even longer than I had with Yuya. They deserved to be happy, and I couldn't be happier to see our Yabumama and Hikapapa finally as a couple.
I blush at Chii's words but comply anyways. I lean down and capture Hikaru's lips for a brief moment, happy to finally have the one I love be mine.
"Come on we need to give you guys your assignments for the next concert." I grin looking at Hikaru.
We all agree and head back to the room. Once inside I pick up the paper's Hikaru and I had been working on. Handing half the pile to Hikaru I whispered into his ear. "Give Chinen and Daiki's last." I handed out the papers to everyone and once Dai-chan and Chinen had the paper in their hands I quickly grasped Hikaru. "Bye guys, see you tomorrow for rehearsal for the concert!" The two of us then promptly ran away from the curious gazes.
I look down and see what Yabu and Hikaru had planned for us. I quickly found myself growing red with anger. "YABU! HIKARU!!!!!!!!" I scream in annoyance as I run after the two boys to give them a piece of my mind, Chii following right behind me.
"What was that about?" I ask looking over at Keito. Ryutaro and Inoo looked about ready to die from laugher as they kept each other up. I then looked down and saw that one of the skits was us in a holiday theme, and Daiki and Chinen were to be penguins. Before I could even utter a word Keito and I were both clutching on our sides laughing.
I stared at everyone laughing with a smile. I was just getting over my fits of giggles, Yama-chan and I were the first to receive our papers, and so our laughing fits had ended. I frowned a bit, thinking that an elf wasn't the best choice for me. I looked over at Yama-chan, my Ryosuke who was laughing his head off with the rest of 7 plus Inoo and felt my heart flutter at the sight.
I couldn't stop laughing, as I felt myself leaning against Inoo for support. We both had cracked up at the image the paper had given us. I felt myself blush as my hand gently brushed against his. I looked up at the smiling face and felt myself smile and blush even deeper.